A week is a really long time

I guess it would be considered two weeks if I add in the time in the hospital and boy scout camp. I miss my kids so much. I just spoke to them and they are standing in line with their dad for a roller coaster ride (be still my heart). They went to a family reunion and had a lot of fun. I figure the more love they get, the better and so they have three families. Mine, my exes' and my husband's. Lots of love for sure!

Rachel had a blast at the beach though. She made lots of "fwends". She kept talking about her brothers and sisters but was content with the little pool, riding the "elegator" (elevator), running through puddles, playing in the "conder" (condo). But now we are really ready for brothers and sisters to come home!!!!

I miss them so much. Tomorrow cannot come soon enough!

By the way, there were five sets of twins at the beach. Three were identical. At first I thought it was twin week but none of them knew the other. Rachel's expression was priceless when she saw lots of "doubles"....

For Bree-I thought of your family and Ashlyn and Haley many times.

jennifer

what do I do, what do I do, what to do.....

I have a big decision to make. I think I'm going to just let it evolve...but I have to choose something. Monday will determine a lot. I've been homeschooling the boys for a couple of years and Elizabeth for three, Emily for one. Rachel is almost three years old and I need to work. I need to make some more money, need to feel self-sufficient again....being a mom is so very important and I don't want to look back and regret this.

Homeschooling is great and I have to say I felt like it was the right thing for us over the past few years. The school system here is not the best, not even close....so it will either be private school or homeschool. But I'm tired....so tired of being the teacher, trying to motivate the kids to do their schoolwork and no longer convinced I can provide them what they need on that level. Their needs are so varied.

The principal is meeting with me Monday. She said Mark's grade only has five students!!! His ENTIRE grade! This would really be good....he needs the one on one....so does John. Maybe Elizabeth does as well. But A Beka is advanced and I'm nervous. I know they have moved forward...so far ahead in reading and doing fine in Math but what about other areas. Will they be bogged down with homework again? Will the other kids be nice? Will Rachel be okay with pre-k-3? Will they let me put her in half a day or maybe even half a day three times a week?

So many questions..Above and more.

time will tell

I hope

jennifer

oh and that doesn't even include my career ideas...will i freelance write? should I tutor? open my own book/kids store..

call it "kids corner"?

The Grim Reaper

Know those near-death experiences you hear about? Well, I had mine but it wasn't exactly comforting. Here is the story.

Almost two weeks ago I had a dental procedure done...relatively simple....but turned into hell. Two days afterwards I developed all of the signs of an infection. I went back. They put me on some serious antibiotics and steroids. I felt better for one day and then it all became a giant blur. The antibiotics they gave me obviously didn't work and I landed myself in a vacation in Room 509. I will spare you the horrible details that would no doubt make you very ill but the belief is that I had or still have a blood infection or something even more interesting-spinal menningitis. They let me go after three days of antibiotics and enough tests to assure them that it wasn't in my brain-no jokes please! ;)

But they told me, now how reassuring is this?...They told me-to turn myself in to the closest hospital if the symptoms return and then I'll receive a lovely spinal tap.

So time shall tell, or so they say.

But I did have my near-death experience...in between violent vomiting/sweating episodes I saw a light....and a dark figure...I believe it was Darth Vader....shouldn't I have seen Luke Skywalker if I were headed to the holy place?

Maybe I should go to church?