When Doubts Creep In

Sometimes I have these doubts about homeschooling. I don't doubt that it is the best thing for them at this point but rather that it is the best thing for me. Simply put, sometimes I just don't want to do it. It's a lot of work and it would be so much easier to put them back into school...on one level..on another it's harder. They would go back to coming home every day with a lot of homework or saying they have none and ending up getting a bad grade for not doing it. They would go back to coming home with attitudes. People picked on them, a friend was mean, etc....and they may or may not tell me at that moment but they'll fight with each other, talk back to me, suffer in silence in there room..it just all depends.

What does this (puts these doubts in my head) is usually a comment from someone else. Yesterday my mom's best friend stopped by. She works for the registrants office and "noticed" that we are not registered to vote here (we are in Chelsea still). They want us to vote here and so she brought the forms by, which was super nice. She was going on about how she loves my house but it is so much work and then she started on homeschooling....how great the schools are here (NOT), how hard it must be to teach everyone, etc. Of course I explained the logistics to her but still, I started doubting.

Last night I went to get basketball forms at the YMCA. Joshua wants to play and maybe some of the other kids. Anyway, as I drove around (in silence) I thought a lot about choices. Sometimes I miss getting dressed up to go to work, being wined and dined, a lot of adult conversations, no disciplining, etc...but those are not the things that matter long term (see previous post, self)...But I do hope I am doing the right thing for the kids. I am going with my instincts, taking it year by year. I am not ANTI public or private school. I may very well put them in conventional school in the future...who knows, maybe even next year. Emily is definitely going to take some correspondence college courses next year when she is 16/17...and Lindsey did great in public school. Right now several of the kids need one on one help and need to advance at their own pace...some faster and some slower than the classroom allows...so that is where we are and that is where we'll be ....for now.